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reaching for the infinite

July 13, 2011

Photo by Camille Seaman

Well, I’m back. Of course it took me a long time to get back here. Babies take time, and there is little motivation at the moment for a blog only one person reads…but I know she appreciates my posts.

As was expected, having my son kind of, you know, changed my life. It is certainly different. I can’t tell if I’m a horrible person or it’s normal to miss my old life; after all, I had the baby at 31 and that was 31 years of getting my way all of the time. I love him in so many ways, however, and I am enjoying getting to know this new little personality. I love making him smile and laugh and can’t wait until he’s a little bit older to show him more of the world.

I thought I’d follow up on an earlier post of New Year’s resolutions for my life and how things turned out seven months later. I promise all of my posts won’t be about the baby (all of the time).

1. Have my baby.

Mission Accomplished! Things went easier than I had hoped. My baby is rad.

2. Lose weight.

I lost all of my pregnancy weight the first two weeks (not recommended). I had a bad case of the “baby blues”–more like a temporary deep depression. I cried almost non-stop those first couple of weeks, but I’m fine now. I’m working on taking off more weight in a healthier way by eating right. Lifting 17 lbs of baby pudge is helping with the exercise.

3. Simplify, simplify, simplify.

It has been hard finding time to do things like organize the house, but I did lower some bills. I’m working on getting the house decluttered but it has been moving at a glacier’s pace.

4. Pay off debt/save.

As I’ve said before, I’ve lowered some bills, and I’ve also taken my credit cards out of my wallet. I’m trying to get us to learn to live within our means, which is easier said than done. It’s hard to adjust to a life spent largely at home rather than at restaurants, bars, etc., but we have little choice now!

5. Keep friends.

This has been very challenging. We don’t get to see a lot of our friends nowadays, and it feels like some of them are pretty wary of the baby. That’s fine…to be expected…but I do feel I need to keep reminding people that we’re not totally housebound.


tell her no no no

March 10, 2011

Just some Thursday dreaming…dreaming of clothes and being able to fit in them!  (Seriously…right now I’m only wearing two pairs of shoes so I don’t stretch out any other pairs.  Pretty sad!)

Mod dress from EmersonMade.













Classic trench from Land’s End Heritage.













Shoes (which I would probably never wear as they would make me over 6′ tall) from ModCloth.

drill baby drill

March 2, 2011

I bought myself a sparkly, a belated birthday gift to myself.  I love it.  I got it through etsy seller chelsea3349.

gulliver’s travels

February 24, 2011

Isn’t this shirtdress just the cutest?  I think I’m going to get that pattern…too bad I’m too exhausted to sew.


February 7, 2011

From here by way of the blog Sweetie Pie Pumpkin Noodle

requiem for a seam

January 27, 2011

I'm currently knitting this cardigan--Aidez by Cirilia Rose.

Bad title, sorry.

As the birth of my first baby approaches, I’m finding that I’m thinking about things I will have to give up–at least temporarily. Obviously the biggest sacrifice will be sleep, and as a die-hard sleep lover, this is going to be the hardest challenge. It will be even harder than not being able to drink, the reality of which has really impacted my social life. Considering my social life for the past decade (and longer, if being truthful–I’m 31 now) has centered around playing music in bars, not being able to drink or even stay up past 10pm has limited my interactions with friends and music scene acquaintances.

Other things I realize I may have to shelve for the next decade, or at least I will have to cut back on, are my crafting endeavors. I am an enthusiastic and obsessed knitter, and the time it takes to make something like a sweater will take me 10 times as long with a demanding baby. In some ways slowing down with knitting will be inevitable anyway, as I don’t knit much in the summer, and the birth is in March.

I am also an enthusiastic and obsessed seamstress and that generally has occupied my summer days. It has been my secret dream to craft a respectable, cute, and fashionable wardrobe with my own two hands. I feel last summer I worked very hard on sewing and made a lot of breakthroughs. In a nutshell, sewing is not hard BUT it is an exercise in patience and attention to detail. Most of what I made last summer didn’t fit and that was because I didn’t measure myself or the garments scrupulously; despite the pile of unwearable clothes I have stashed away that seems to point to the contrary, what I learned will be invaluable when I am able to finally start up again.

I am trying to remain optimistic that maybe my baby will like sleep as much as I do, he will find the whir of the sewing machine comforting, and will enjoy some solitary pursuits as much I have throughout my life. I am undoubtedly excited about my baby and spending most of my time with him, but I also recognize the need for me to have my own thing, my own time, and be my own person–even if that is only for an hour a day.

kitchen love

January 16, 2011

Image from the Jan/Feb 2011 issue of Lonny.